My best girl Jemima is lucky to have so many people in her life that love her, but as she explains here, love isn’t always plain sailing…
What is love? Always an interesting question. Love has so many forms. Whether it be a mother’s love, relationships or friendships. Even down to your pets. It can be an amazing feeling of butterflies or a toxic poison that eats away at you.
Like many women I’ve seen the highs and lows of love. It’s made me do some crazy things that you just can’t give reason. At present I can only describe my love life like a pendulum, swinging between love and hate. Then there’s that steady middle ground of just plain numb. Why stay? Love. Love for the man that’s hiding inside. Like I said, love will make you do some crazy shit.
Love is hope. Hope for a happy ever after. That hope for a better tomorrow. Sticking it out and braving the rough is made that little bit easier when it’s for the one you love.
Stepping away from the relationship side of it there’s the love I have for my son. That love that’s so deep it hurts. The mere thought of anything happening to him and I want to hold him tight and never let go. The pride I feel when he learns something new. I swore to Lola when I was pregnant I would never be that mum who posts thousands of pictures and informs the world when my child stops peeing their pants and uses a potty. Well guess what? I do. Not quite to the point of too much information but still… Why? Because I adore my son. He is my world and even on my lowest days he is what pushes me to get up and carry on. It’s the purest and truest love I have ever known. When you know you would lay your life down for someone without a second thought, you know it’s love.
Then there’s the love for your family and the family you choose, your friends. They can drive you mad. You can fall out and squabble but if anyone dare hurt them, then stand back. It’s easy to take these people in your life for granted and not realise just how much they mean to you. I love my friends and family and it hurts me if I disappoint them or, even without intention, hurt them. Only recently there was an incident where mine and Lola’s friendship was tested. Long story short she was in a bad way and thought I ignored her cry for help, that I didn’t care enough to help. However I only found out after the fall out. Up until that point I was completely clueless. But to hear the upset in her voice and reading the messages was heart breaking. I just wanted to hug her like a big sister. The love you share with your family and friends runs strong and deep. They can let you down but you know they are the ones that can pick you back up. Love is family.
I could go on and on. The list is endless. I won’t even start on my love for strawberry laces. Love is everything but nothing. You can’t touch it, you can’t see it. It’s a feeling and shown in the actions towards others. Love can be safe but dangerous, bitter sweet. It can mould the person you can become. What is love? Love is pain.