Hey there! Its been a while since one of these updates, so I thought I’d round off the last month in this old familiar format before I get all deep and emotional about my recent self discovery in future posts. And yes, there has been some self discovery, something liberating and exciting but for now, here is all the gossip on the man front…
India – It was an awkward goodbye in the lobby of our apartment building. Neither of us wanted a big emotional farewell, but after the way we felt about each other and the intensity of the time we had spent together, a simple, ‘see ya later mate!’ wasn’t going to suffice. We’d shared one last joint on our balcony, sunning our bare feet against the terracotta slabs and watching our fingers dance as we held hands in silence.
‘I’m going to miss this,’ he’d said.
I asked him if he meant our stunning view across Maidan Nezalezhnosti in Kiev and he looked at me like I was being a petulant child. He was right to. I knew exactly what he meant because I was going to miss sitting alone with him too. I followed him into the lobby and out the large oak door to his waiting taxi. We barely made eye contact as he put his bag in the boot of the car and issued instructions to the driver.
‘I’ll see you in London, yeah?’ he said as he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me tight against his body. I looked up into his deep brown eyes and kissed the lips that I had sworn never to forget,
Mr. Spudman – I text this guy when I returned from my trip, only to be told that he didn’t really want to get involved with a woman who ‘jets off’ all the time. Now although I don’t consider one month out of the UK to be an indicator of a jet setter lifestyle, I wasn’t going to tell him that and try to arrange a date. If he cannot handle an ambitious woman who loves to travel and will disappear for a weekend on a moments notice, which is exactly the kind of woman I am turning into now that my son is old enough to take care of himself, then he is absolutely not the man for me.
Tex – I never expected to be writing about this one any time soon, but I think life may be intervening somewhat and so I feel compelled to document this weird new turn of events. Firstly, I haven’t spoken to or seen Tex since our break-up bonus night sex at New Year. My son bumped into him the other evening and was surprised with how many questions Tex had about me. My son replied politely and was quick to give Mumma all the gossip when he returned home. ‘He still likes you,’ my boy said with a teasing glint in his eye.The following day, Billy and I had a seemingly spontaneous conversation about what exactly went wrong between Tex and I. He didn’t seem to be prying for information for any particular reason; it was just a conversation long overdue given that Billy was instrumental in getting us together in the first place. These two innocent looking encounters must have sat in the back of my mind waiting for an opportune moment to mess with my head. That moment followed quickly. I, stupidly, downloaded a virus onto my laptop as part of a bundle. It wasn’t intentional and I kicked myself the second I realised I had done it. I’m relatively computer savvy so was able to eliminate most of the problems caused by said virus, but my laptop is still ridiculously slow and I don’t know enough to correct it without risking fucking up the entire thing. Cue Tex and his wizard like IT skills.
‘Sure, I’ll come over one night this week,’ he replied after reading my pathetic plea for assistance, ‘maybe we can grab dinner afterwards?’
I agreed. I’m still a little confused why, apart from the fact I really need my laptop fixed. How does this relate to life interfering? Well, as Jemima so quickly pointed out to me, I should have called Noel for IT assistance. He’s a total brainbox and the prospect of meeting up with him wouldn’t be causing me minor panic attacks right now, but after my son and Billy both mentioned Tex in the 48hrs prior to my IT fuck up, the man was stuck in my head and my subconscious made the decision to call him without me really thinking about it. So now I have to meet Tex, who has by all accounts, turned into a massive MDMA freak and is currently unemployed. I don’t know what life had in mind, but me hooking up with Tex again simply ain’t gonna happen!
Azerbaijan – I miss this kid! Although I have no intentions of repeating my nearly jail-able offense, I have smiled to myself on more than one occasion as I remember the attention this young man paid me in Ukraine, and continues to show me on social media. He will be studying in Istanbul over the next year or so and I am a little tempted to take up his offer to visit. My wanderlust is clearly stronger than my willpower!
Pakistan – This one sat in the background and laughed heartily as the drama between India, Azerbaijan and myself unfolded. He was highly amused and we shared stories of our dating and sex lives all throughout our time together in Kiev. Its sod’s law then that Pakistan, the man I connected with most in humour and in intellect, would decide he wanted to take me out on a date the day I left Ukraine. He says he’ll be in London soon, so I guess we’ll meet again then.
Mr. NYC – I hate how this one manages to charm his way back into my good graces without really trying! Our whatsapp communication remains constant, but occasionally he’ll say something or his timing will be off and I wonder if he really has any idea who I am. I worry he’s read this blog and has only remembered the filthy sex parts. I want him to see more than that. I’m dubious about meeting him if he only wants a fuck. As I said at the beginning of this update, I’ve made some self discoveries and although they haven’t put and end to the raunchier side of Lola, they’ve definitely added a few conditions. Plus, Mr.NYC and I still haven’t Skyped and its beginning to weird me out! I’ve no reason to disbelieve anything he has told me, but dude, I’ve watched Catfish! I’m not going to be one of the gullible ones!
The Mountie – Ahhhh Mountie, he’s never far away! He calls, he texts, he facebooks. I’m polite, but I’m not interested. Mountie had his chance, he blew it. Next!
There is very little else to say at this present time. I am working incredibly hard and have several new projects on my horizon that need a lot of attention. My trip to Ukraine put me in touch with some very ambitious and influential people and there are fantastic opportunities ahead for me if I just focus on creating them! I’m all about the networking at present and that has left me very little time to date. In fact, part of my recent self discovery is that I don’t want to date and maybe, just maybe, this blog is nearing it’s final post. But we can save that for another time. Be well, dear readers!
Sex: Yes. Oh yes!
Drugs: Apart from the occasional joint, I’m pretty sure my drug taking days are over.
Alcohol: I’m going through detox at the moment, by personal choice not enforced health benefits. I’ve just spent a month with people who have at least 5 vodka shots during a simple Tuesday evening family meal, my liver deserves a medal and a rest!
Mental Health: 10/10
Physical Health: 10/10